Sunday, December 17, 2006.
5:04 AM |
i dun go clubbin' becoz of girls,
i dun go clubbin' becoz of drinks,
i dun go clubbin' becoz of the music,
i dun go clubbin' becoz i'm too rich,
i go clubbin' for a different cause from others, for i'm clubbin' coz i wana foget about certain things for the few hours.. but everyday i wake up after clubbin' i find myself back to square one... the things i wana forget about never seem to be forgotten at all.. u might say clubbin' is temporary addiction for me to get rid of troubles, juz like some people drink and smoke.. the high feeling makes them forget about troubles, but to me perhaps clubbin' is my way. i dance alone, which makes me seem anti-social on the dance floor at times, but thats my way, sometimes mayb when clubbin' doesnt help, i should think of something better to do... which i cant think of any at the moment.. i cant smoke, cant drink and i won't hook up on strangers.. eventually at the end of the day after every session, i feel myself feelin' so empty.. not coz i didnt enjoy myself, but coz once the high feeling is over, the depression comes again. i'm not an emo person but i'm someone whom u can call, full of feelings.. i might not show it on the exterior, but inside me, there's a sense of wad i call, inferiority.. roughly that should do it..
and yup, i went MOS yet again today.. wif leon and jiaxian.. supposedly i dun haf to mention her, coz with or without her, it really makes no difference.. jio me go and end up there liao den dunoe go where... i guess imma nv go clubbin' when a girl invites to acc, coz eventually at the end of the day, she'll end up missin' wan. damn. wad am i talking about. anyways, i guess i'll nv go wif her again.. end of my shit. today's shitty, for first time i drank down a glass of vodka-ribena in like 10seconds, mayb my fastest record, coz i'm not an avid fan of drinking.. so its considered an achievement for me already... but vodka kick comes slow, so as expected i felt headache after like 30mins later or so.. cant remember... i juz remember lying down at the bus stop there de platform there... while leon was lying on his hands on his legs while sitting down... i juz lied flat on my back beside him... lol.. funny.
anyways about something happy for me, i finally got my own address in the US and Japan.
that means i can buy anything from the US/Japan that doesnt include shipping to Singapore and haf them post to there. from then i'll see when i'm free to take from there... mayb when i'm free i might juz head over there and stay a few days. take a break of the pacing lifestyle in Singapore... yup, that concludes my post for today.
put the broken heart in the icebox to stop its bleeding.one blog to introduce to my friends:
Damn Cool Picsdun worrie, there's no pornography, no blood & gore, no restricted contents, just pure visual entertainment.. more on funny stuff, hahas... yup so enjoy!
Loves, derrick out.
